It's sad. I don't know how to put it into words but to me Hikki's like a little girl who just wants to do what she loves to do but can't control what's happening around her.

Arrgh....I'm not good with words.
But it's like a good person trying to prevent him or herself from rotting from the outside in.

I know this probably won't describe what I'm thinking but I'm not very good at expressing feelings through words. -.-

But I find that it helps a lot if there's always something to smile or feel good about. And if Hikki's truly sad then the most anyone can do is smile in front of her. Smiles are contagious you know. :)